A poem: Evening with insects in his mouth. Injuries I can never fully meet up, join, paste, articulate properly braying mule, pig grunts, squawks obscene from your great lips. Worse than in a corral. Sylvia Plath. desfatachez once told me you had the ugliest things in the world.
remember that you were down the hall, the home of that horrible, they traveled up and down
, blood in the end, what was left of me, I had
fear, challenge you, you turned away I started hitting
wall with
closed fist, then.
did not open the door to my friends, not picked up the phone,
ate too much, watching TV, napping always
world was out there passing as an elegant car with Bowie inside
while my kills, I grew
polish and puffy face in the mirror suggested that guts and violence.
You can hate hated as the mouth of a wolf, the master, the implacable,
I hated the same way as pitch, of love, unforgiving
losing the
stirrups learned the disaster of the war came to seem an art to
you read Sun Tzu, nothing was beautiful in that house, the dog just brought some life
bustled me that misery decorating with blue paint and asphalt.
should forgive me for allowing it all, try to do now with
psychoanalysis, love, a house with no hallways, all air, all clean,
sort of strategy to slow down from boredom. I write books, I like to sit on the bench
in front of house, sun, night, very late
get drunk, make love to what I call making love, no rust or nightmares
only soft, like a socket
lung.
rid of you, with the latter poem, as if you fall from a third party and not
died.